The First Two Albums

by Casiotone for the Painfully Alone

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1-16 originally released as Pocket Symphonies for Lonesome Subway Cars, 2001
Recorded in California between 1998-2001 by
Jason Quever (1 & 4)
Owen Ashworth (2, 5, 8 & 16)
RK Williams (6, 7, 9, 12 & 13)
Michael Eberhard (14)
Sikwaya Condon (3, 10, 11, 15 & various overdubs)
Mixed & assembled w/ Sikwaya at his house in Oakland, CA, 2001

29-31 originally released as Answering Machine Music, 1999
Recorded by Owen Ashworth on answering machines, boomboxes & borrowed 4-tracks except:
18, 20 & 21 recorded by RK Williams
27 & 28 recorded by Mark Small

Bonus tracks:
29 recorded by Sikways Condon in Oakland, CA, 2000
30-32 recorded by Owen Ashworth in Portland, OR, 2002

Mastered by Joseph Suchy

Cover art by Owen Ashworth

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released November 8, 2005

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Track Name: We Have Mice
sometimes at night i watch the mice across the kitchen floor
i used to think that they came from the fireplace
but they come in under the pantry door
they get so close i could touch them all
on the nights i wait up for your call

the landlord asks if we've seen them
& she sets traps but i just spring them
the roommates say we should kill them all
but they stay up w/ me on nights you never call
& some nights you never call
Track Name: Tonight Was a Disaster
you went out w/ your best sweater on
w/ every intention of dancing til dawn
but when the dj played that song
it all went wrong

& crying in the cab ride home
w/ the frank sinatra on the radio
but it might as well have been lil kim
when every song you hear still reminds you of him

& you'll say that it's no big deal
but it's the shake in your voice that gives away how you feel
& you couldn't have slammed the door any faster

yeah you'll say that it's no big deal
but it's the tears on your face that give away how you feel
they say tonight tonight was a disaster
Track Name: Suitcase In Hand
at the station the train is leaving at eight
& nothing's gonna make me stay
hey hey

no room for trouble in this old suitcase
& nothing's gonna make me stay
hey hey

& i'd call if there was something to say
but hey hey hey
& nothing's gonna make me stay
hey hey

& though it would have been a year in may
hey hey hey
& nothing's gonna make me stay
hey hey
Track Name: Caltrain Song
i heard the words come out of my mouth
& i watched your face fall
you turned from me to the window of the train
& you wouldn't say anything at all

the stations passed us by
& you still wouldn't look me in the eye
this is regret
this is the 7:10 train into san francisco

the conductor opens the door
& i don't have a boyfriend anymore
Track Name: Dying Batteries
i know you're lying
when you start talking like your batteries are dying
the words get slow
when there are things you don't want me to know

but before you let the room go to ice
i remind you that the song on the radio is nice
so let's just listen
Track Name: Oh Contessa
the contessa deluxe
that you bought at laney swap meet for seven bucks
sat on the passenger side the whole way down
to fullerton ca your home town

i'm writing this letter to say
that i read your last letter for the fifth time today
i've memorized the typos under x's & the o's
punched clean through the paper

that typer you bought w/ the c button bent
so you have to use the sign for the cent
& the stamps you stick
on the envelopes you lick

are what keep me close to you in your parents' backyard
punching the typewriter keys too hard
Track Name: Bus Song
we ran to the stop as the bus pulled away
impossibly worn out from the seventh shared cigarette of the day
i caught my breath as i watched you
swear at the tail lights of our missed 22
under a sky of darkening blue
it could be half an hour until our bus comes around
by then the sun will be down
Track Name: Yr Boyfriend
you pretend that it's alright
to wait up half the night
when he can't be bothered to phone
you spend another night alone

i'm not trying to make you mad
or act like your dad
it's just time that you were told
your boyfriend's an asshole
Track Name: Casiotone for the Painfully Alone In a Green Sweater
i gave back the t-shirt that you'd always wear
i went by your work & just left it there
all the leaves are brown
& it's autumn now

it was a summer fling
don't take it personal or anything
you can wear your heart on your sleeve
but pull your sweater over

no more kisses under shooting stars
no more rides on the handlebars
no more drive-ins
in the back seat of your parents' car

it was a summer fling
& it didn't mean anything
& you can cry your eyes out on the phone
oh yeah
Track Name: Number Ten
do you remember when you were still in town
before you abandoned all of us for the puget sound
there were seven of us living in that dilapidated flat
w/ questionable plumbing & a grey cat

you sold your records pushed your mattress to the street
& said goodbye california i've conceded to defeat
you bought a one way ticket on a northbound greyhound bus
i can't say that we weren't jealous

goodbye good luck goodbye
Track Name: Destroy the Evidence
you say you don't want me coming around anymore
you sit in the window but you won't answer the door
the phone rings & rings
you won't let me bring you things anymore

there are 26 steps to your door
but i won't be counting those anymore

i've got seventeen seconds on in my room tonight
& when that's over i've got faith so alright alright alright
i burned all the pictures & let the letters loose
taped over the mixes & cut the noose

there are 26 steps to your door
but i'm not counting anymore
Track Name: Lesley Gore On the T.A.M.I. Show
i finally wrote you the letter
w/ all the things i've been meaning to say
but i was walking to your apartment
& the letter fell out of my pocket on the way
seven pages on 16th street
i lost my words under tires & feet
& you'll probably never have a clue
coz i'll probably never say a thing to you

i've been watching out the window of the bus
every time it passes by
just to see if you were outside
smoking cigarettes & passing time
i think of things that i wanted to say
when i ride by almost every day
but you'll probably never have a clue coz
i'll probably never say these things to you
Track Name: Oh, Illinois!
so nice to hear from you
it's been a while it's true
still gluing up your stamps i see
i never even used the last ones you sent me
what do you do with your days
other than write to boys far away
you work two jobs your apartment sucks
your new boyfriend's a lousy fuck
thanks for the tape the photos are swell
i guess chicago's treating you well

you say you've got my picture on the wall
you sent your number for me to call
i guess i would if i could afford to
coz i know that you're bored too
i guess the only thing that's stopping me
is once that we got talking
i'm afraid of what we might start to say
& i don't want to start missing you again
Track Name: The Subway Home
it gets worse before it gets better
that's what your best friend said in the letter
all the pictures are still on the shelf
& you're barely making rent by yourself
your mom is worried for your health

you said it right from the start
these sorts of things fall apart

you take the subway home after work
from your job as a retail clerk
you're spending all the money you've saved
records keep the quiet away
up all night and sleep all day

he said it right from the start
these sorts of things fall apart
Track Name: Airport Samba
i waited w/ you until the woman called your flight
& when i wished you a safe trip you wouldn't look me in the eye
you tried to think of something else when i kissed you at the gate
it was too sad a moment to try to contemplate

i wish that there was something i could do or say
to make it so you didn't have to go away
i wish that you would look at me but i don't want to see you cry
i wish that you would turn around you never even said goodbye
Track Name: We Have Mice (Boombox Version)
sometimes at night i watch the mice across the kitchen floor
i used to think that they came from the fireplace
but they come in under the pantry door
they get so close i could touch them all
on the nights i wait up for your call

the landlord asks if we've seen them
& she sets traps but i just spring them
the roommates say we should kill them all
but they stay up w/ me on nights you never call
& some nights you never call
Track Name: When the Bridge Toll Was a Dollar
i reached into my wallet
& i pulled out one single crisp clean dollar bill
& i handed it to you
i watched as you adjusted your sun visor
to keep the glare out of your eyes
then you rolled down your window
& you paid the toll taker
as we drove away
i watched you push your hair behind your right ear
& you turned to me & you smiled
& in that smile was everything
you were all i'd ever wanted
Track Name: Casiotone for the Painfully Alone Joins the Foreign Legion
i should have known how this would end
you've stopped being my friend
some things aren't worth mending
some messages aren't worth unsending

the way you walked past the door
oblivious to me writhing on the floor
from the pain that you inflicted
& all the pills that the doctor prescripted
they don't work anymore

it's not the point that i'm mad
you fucked me up pretty bad
but now it's all too late
you can forward my mail to the state
i joined the foreign legion
Track Name: Cold Shoulder
i just got off the train & i didn't sleep
i haven't been in this town in weeks
& the only things keeping me alive
are your picture in my pocket & a dollar forty-five
& i'm hoping to hell that you're home

& as i approach your house on the beach
& your front gate is in my reach
i try to think of one single reason
why you'd want to take me back in this winter season
& you know what i can't think of a one

the forecast is for a cold shoulder
it's been two months since i walked away in boulder
it was the stupidest thing i've ever done
& now i'm coming back to you
unshaven unslept & sorry
Track Name: Rice Dream Girl
i was in the safeway store
when i saw you in aisle four
i swear you looked so nice
you were buying milk that was made out of rice

i tried to think of something clever to say
but you were already walking away
in an attempt to get my groove on
i offered you my white castle coupon

the radio was playing seal
i tried to tell you how i feel
but then our shopping carts locked wheels
& the moment just seemed wrong

oh won't you do what's right
put your groceries in my car tonight
i want to take you home

oh w/ your eyes of blue
i want to drink rice milk w/ you
i'll be your one and only
so we won't be so lonely
Track Name: Secretest Crush
the secretest crush there ever was
is in my heart & there's no one i can tell
cause everyone around here
has a big fat mouth including me
& that's the hardest part
cause i really want to tell
you how she grabbed my arm last night
& how i felt my heart stop
but i don't trust you not to tell
& i guess it's just as well
yeah i guess it's just as well

the secretest crush there ever was
is in my heart & there's no one i can tell
& i can't even write a song about her
because she loves my band
yeah she loves my band
Track Name: A Normal Suburban Lifestyle Is a Near Impossibility Once You've Fallen In Love With an International Spy
the 2nd of april 1998
is when they came & took him away
it was raining hard
secret service men were standing in the yard
she wiped the tears from her eyes
she knew this day would come

the sunday paper was scattered on the floor
near where the fbi had kicked in their door
he was gone w/o a single kiss goodbye
they finally caught up with her international spy
Track Name: Baby It's You
whatever happened to the girl
who let me write my name in her tattoo
do you remember hiding out w/ me
in theater number two
& can you believe
i don't even recall if we ever kissed
i still have your sweatshirt
& i still have your records
& i still have those tapes you made
of your favorite songs
but i just can't quite bring myself
to put them on

but maybe it's too late for that now

i still have the letter you wrote
sitting on my steps
waiting for me to come home
on a night that i did not come home
& i still have the letter where you said
the words i'd waited for
since the day we met

but maybe it's too late for that now
or maybe i fucked it all up somehow
i wrote my name on your arm in blue
baby it's you
Track Name: You Never Call
& we've all but lost our chance
for a summertime romance
i watched the days slip into fall
& you still won't return my calls

maybe you'd like to go to a show
please just call me and let me know
when you finally get home
i'll be waiting by the phone

i know it must seem quite obscene
all these calls on your machine
but you've left me with no choice
& all your roommates know my voice
Track Name: Daina Flores You're the One
i hope your summer's lots of fun
hooray for class of '91
although we've never talked that much
i hope we always keep in touch
i wish i'd got to know you better
& had the nerve to pass the letters
that i wrote to you in class
i guess the year just went too fast

i've seen you walking with your boy
holding hands & acting coy
although i'm sure his love is true
i'd be so very good for you
i've missed my chance the year is done
hooray for class of 91
i hope your summer's lots of fun
daina flores you're the one
Track Name: Beeline
the last time i was here it was december
the last time i was here you were mine
but i happen to know for a fact that it's not december anymore
& it's been six months since you made your final beeline for the door

& since you left i've made a list
of 374 reasons why i could never live without you
since you've left i've made a list
of 375 reasons why i never ever ever ever ever
want to see you again

the day you left it broke me apart
the day you left it cut me clean in two
but scars get smooth
i guess there's some sort of irony there
but you still haven't explained
what you're doing back here
& you still haven't explained
what you're doing
standing on my front lawn

i don't know where you've been hiding for the last six months
but i really think you ought to just go back there now
because i don't want you around here anymore
& if you'll excuse me i was kind of busy getting over you
Track Name: I Should Have Kissed You When I Had the Chance
i remember watching you go
& the long walk home
past the blinking light
of the strip clubs& the carl's jr
& i remember brushing your hand
& how it made me feel so sad
i wanted to hold your hand so bad

this is the bus that will take you away
i hope you enjoyed your stay
it wouldn't have worked anyway

this is the bus that will take you away
i hope you enjoyed your stay
it wouldn't have worked anyway
i should have kissed you when i had the chance
Track Name: Hey Jelly
jelly don't let them tell you what to say
jelly you gotta find out your own way
you gotta hold on to what you know is right
coz no one else is gonna help you fight your fight

jelly i wanna tell you it's okay
but jelly it's getting harder every day
you gotta hold on to what you know it is true
& i believe your films are gonna save you
Track Name: Hotel Huntington Sign
staring at the backside
of the hotel huntington sign
at a quarter to seven o'clock in the am
it's still quiet & it's still dark
i'm on the swings in grace cathedral park
this is the last place that we sat
before you left town
this is the last place that we had
before you weren't around
i hope ohio is treating you well
Track Name: It's Winter & You Don't Love Me Anymore
oh & every once in a while
the way that you stop & you smile
it breaks my heart every time
because i know that you're thinking
of anyone but me
& i don't understand
why we've stopped holding hands
i know that it's cold outside
but do you have to wear mittens all the time
you put on a scarf to keep warm
& muffs to keep your ears from harm
but it all just shuts me out
& i watch your breath puff out
Track Name: Seattle Washington
it's always tight at the end of the month
until that check comes there's nothing for lunch
i'm sick of all my stuff being halfway broken
too tired to pretend
that i'm not sick of my friends
some days i'm sorry that i ever moved here
some days i think about moving back in w/ my folks
some days i think about moving up north
where rent is cheaper &
i could have a house w/ a porch
to watch the rain
walk out in the rain
stand under the rain
& let seattle wash me